It's amazing how much babies change in the first year. They're born tiny and helpless and all they do is nurse, sleep, poop, and cry. And by the end of the year, they're walking and trying to say words, eating table food, and pulling their sisters' hair for the fun of it.
It makes me so proud to watch all her accomplishments, but it does make me sad, too. Kids are babies for such a short time before they form a conscience and begin to do things they know push Mommy's buttons. And the bigger they grow, the more opinions they have and the more arguments they start or perpetuate.
My toddler is in the midst of her terrible twos, which most days aren't that terrible except when she's sick, hungry, tired, or needs a diaper change. But there are other days when, for no apparent reason, she decides that she doesn't need to listen to me anymore...that she can do whatever it is -- like cutting an apple with a knife! -- all by herself. And no matter how many times I say "no," she shakes her head and holds her ground doing whatever it is I just told her to stop. I know she's just getting to the point where she wants to be more independent, and to do things on her own, and I respect that, but at the same time, I want her to respect that I'm the parent and know best. At least when it comes to handling knives... :)
When my toddler was turning 1, I wasn't sad. I guess the difference is that the second baby may be my last. I go back and forth on this all the time. I would like another baby, at some point, but with the difficulties I've encountered with both of their births, that's definitely a deterrant. Maybe I could adopt and avoid all that childbirth-related drama, but then I have to look at our family finances. We don't live on much money, and two kids in disposable diapers was all that our budget could handle this past winter. So, maybe there will be another baby...eventually (it's much too much work with them so close in age)...
But, I digress. Yes, it's my baby's one-year birthday coming up. I'm starting to compile a list, being mindful of the great plenty of toys we already have, thanks to our toddler's two-year birthday this summer. Here's the list so far:
- Magnets (probably as much for my enjoyment as hers -- I love magnets!)
- New sippy cups
- A jacket with a hood
- 12-month winter clothes